I drop OB at school explain his levels for the night, give instructions about the day and when to call me, discuss how he has been with in himself. I then negotiate with ATM taking yet another one of schools play cars, telling myself I will promise to bring it back in the afternoon. Drive round to pre school grab ATM, drop him off jump back into the car to drive over to Aldi wondering if I am going to get parked or will have to wait for a space (which I just hate and always think maybe just park in the children's spaces, no I never can bring myself to do it). Get home with enough time to put it away and then tidy up ready to collect the boys.
In theory I have three mornings to myself one is shopping, one is cleaning and the other is running errands that I can not do with both boys or need to look at something where ATM will get bored or going to look at the pre school website for some reason I said I would write.
I have come to a decision that I need something for me that I can lose myself in, nothing to do with house, children etc I honestly think my mental state needs it. So the hubby and I are first joining our local golf club gym, they have a swimming pool yoga classes and aqua aerobics to name a few classes, I have told myself to do two things a week. I need to get fit, I run around after the boys but I am awfully out of shape and I know that exercise is great stress relief and that's what's needed. Something to lose myself in, get my mind on something else, and trying to breath and not collapse will I am sure do that, but let's hope I see results which I can focus on.
Secondly and I must admit I am more excited about is I want to learn to sew, OB is at school and will need outfits for school plays and it really interests me. So I have been looking into doing a complete and total beginners sewing class, I have had a few responses and will be booking something up. I have lots of ideas and for the first time in a long time I am excited by doing something new, this is what is needed an escape from everything so that I can feel refreshed and I hope able to deal with the day to day a little better. So come on where do I buy a sewing machine :0)